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WE DID IT!!! Codys a great trainer!!! Haha… Im just so happy and ELEVEN lbs thinner =]

Im hungry… haha dinner time!!!

Dude!!! I went to the gym tonight. I skipped out on yesterday [such a bad girl, I know]. So I figured, why not make up for it?! Haha… THREE hours later… I felt like Jell-OHHH!!! Me and Cody spent a whole three hours, touturing me. Weights and more weights, and cardio. Oh man. I ate SOOO good today. So Im hoping for the big 89!!! Its coming… Yay for mini goals!

 Im so beat. 3 hours HURTS!!! Haha night everyone =]

I’m ridiculously exhausted. And… I slept for TWELVE hours! AHH!! I did lose one more lb though =]

I ate pretty healthy today. And I’m about to start my workout. Step time! And some abs on my workout ball. I gotta go find my free weights too. Ughh me and Cody skipped out on the gym today. That was stupid. Thank God I have some work out equiptment here. Id cry if I didnt work out. I just ate a good meal too. Lots of protein. So workout time for sure.

Then bed! I just want to sleep. I think I overslept. But hey! I didnt cave today… and mannnn did Taco Bell sound soooo good. Im so tempted! But I dont do it! Im stressed though. Theres way too much going on right now. What a weird time to start a diet. I just gotta keep with it and not let this stress get to me. Im used to pigging out like crazy when Im angry, or depressed, or anything! And it sucks, Im usually so optimistic! I mean, I still am. I just wish some things were different. But you know, getting this weight off will make me feel 10000000000X better! So stickin’ with it! WOO!!!

Ok, really, its step time now… I wonder where I put my Ipod…

xo

Ok, so I started dieting at midnight on Thursday. I ate a TON of food that day, to say goodbye haha. And I waited til midnight to weigh in. 200 lbs exactly.

Yesterdays weigh in, Friday, 5pm, 195.4! Seriously?! AWESOME!!! So I thought that weight loss was due to all the gross foods and sodas I had previously comsumed that day. So 4.6 lbs, not bad, considering all the junk food I ate Thursday.

But to my amazement… I weighed in at 4pm today, almost 24 hours later… 192.2!!! WHAT IS GOING ON?! Thats another 3.2 lbs!

Im gonna start having to take pix of me on the scale and literally have a picture of what the scale reads! No ones gonna believe all this!

I just got a new scale for all this, it has a body fat reader too! And I was so sure it was wrong… I went back to my “old” scale. Well, it said 192.2 also! Guess I’m flushing out some serious bad weight from my body huh? =] YAY!

I heart protein hahaha

Good lord! I was just looking at my space and noticed a friend put up pix from new years. OMG! I look HUGE! If I had any intention of cheating, I certainly dont now! Ughhhhh…

 I’m going to get my stepper!

 YAY!

AHHH!!! I dont wanna drink anymore water!!! LOL… So I’ll give you one guess as to what “I have to…” do! Stupid H2O. Anyways! Today is going extremely well. I work nights, so my day doesnt start til about 3pm, sometimes later.

I woke up at 4:30pm today. I drank a lot of cold water, to speed up and wake up my metabolism. I started some breakfast. An egg, an apple, then I made my orange julius. So good, I think I might have another before bed haha. I went to the gym with Cody, my amazing and supportive boyfriend. We worked out for 2 hours. Im already sore. Im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. We did arms today. Hes so much stronger than I am. NO FAIR! =p We came home around 10:30 and I started some dinner. VERY lean turkey burger and veggies. I had some awesome garlic green beans. Im so happy I learned to cook! Id be in biiiig trouble if I was trying to diet and didnt know how to make anything!

Now Im just watching tv. Nothings on. Nothings ever on late at night. Boo. I should probably go back to work soon. I kinda left for a while. Stress. LOTS of stress. And what do I do when I stress? EAT. Yuck. No more. =] So… When I feel a little better about myself and my situation, I’ll be back to work.

What else? Not much. I feel good… a little hungry. Legit hungry. Im just trying to make sure that I eat when Im hungry and not when I think Im hungry. That was a major downfall. Seeing all the food commercials and thinking about how good something tastes makes me hungry. Now when that happens I make me a protein shake. Or grab a cube of cheese or something! Protein can curb any sign of hunger. Mind over matter, right? I know I didnt get enough calories yet today. But I dont wanna splurge. Im so hard on myself. I dont like it sometimes, but it does produce some great results.

God! I feel bad for whoever reads these haha… I kinda think of these blogs as a way for me to vent. Just say what I feel. It feels good to get it out.

I told Cody about me joining this site today. I feel like he has my back. Its nice. And its super great to hear him tell me Im always beautiful. I just wanna feel better about me. I swear, it starts on the inside. When I start eating healthy and working out, I feel better on the inside, and then it starts to show on the outside.

I got so upset this Christmas. I went to put on my jeans… I ended up crying and having an anxiety attack because they didnt fit and I didnt have anything to wear to the family xmas party. That SUCKED. So Im gonna fix that. I have my all time fave pair of jeans. A size 11 from Hollister. And incase you dont know, that brand runs SOOOOO small. I used to work there and a size 11 is comparable to a 9 or 7 in juniors. They used to fit. And they werent tight at all! Now? They go about half way up my thighs. Those are my goal jeans. I need them back… They’re way cute! Haha…

Im looking forward to the weigh in tomorrow. Lets see what I did! I weigh everyday. I feel like I need to. Im not sure why… Lets go Day 2! Cody already said we were gonna go to the gym together. Hes great. Legs tomorrow! Which means sprints… I havent done those in a lonnnnng time. Wish me more luck haha. Until tomorrow…

So… I’m starting… AGAIN. Oh well. I truly believe its never too late to start. I found this site and now I’m gonna stick to it. I know a lot of people here need support. I guess I need a little too!

I pigged out tonight. I guess as a last time thing? I certainly hope so. I never want to feel this way again. I once was a certified binge eater. NOT GOOD! I know. I used to have a few seriously bad eating habits. Ive learned the healthy lifestyle. When I diet, I eat anywhere from 6 to 8 “mini meals” a day. So congrats to me for moving on to better ways : )

Since I graduated in ‘04, I lost 59 lbs. Of those 59, I gained quite a few back. I posted a few pictures of myself from when I was a little thinner. Motivational I thought : ) So… wish me luck! I have all my diet foods ready to go. And come morning it starts. Lots of water, protein, healthy foods and exercise! I’m doing this and I’m doing it the HEALTHY way. I’m ready to lose the lbs biggest loser style. No turning back. And no dissapointments. Here I go!!!