So, now that Ive gone healthy grocery shopping, taken a nap, and had something to eat, I can update you on why Ive gained a million pounds back, and Im in the shittiest mood known to woman kind.
Ok, so Cody [the boyfriend] went away February 1st really early in the morning for training to go to iraq. While he was gone I stayed with his mom and his sister at their house in colorado. I asked his mom before I went down if she would take me to the gym like I wanted and if I could eat the way I wanted. She agreed. I didnt get to the gym as much as she promised, but I still went a lot. And I did not have one cheat thing at all for TWO WHOLE WEEKS. I mean, I went HARDCORE!!! I was soooooooo untempted! Ok, so two weeks of greatness, I lose 7lbs the healthy way. Awesome!
Fast forward now to Friday the 13th. Late that night, Cody came to his moms house. And thats where the food cheating began. Since he was going to iraq, he wanted things he wouldnt be able to have over there. And not to mention our Vday dinner at maggianos. OMGGG delicious. So all together Friday through today, Ive consumed enough food for 4 people to eat and be full each day. Yah. Gross.
Ok, so Valentines day. We went to dinner at my fave restaurant. We talked, had an amazing night, and Cody asked me to marry him. YAY!!! I said yes, of course. And we got a hotel room, etc…
So yesterday, I was crying and upset cuz Cody had to leave today and we were talking. He asked me if I was upset about certain things. And he told me things without me even asking. One of those things being that he only wanted to talk to me and his family while he was gone.
SOOO todaaaayyy… Ughh, such a long story… We dropped him off, said goodbye, all that good stuff. And I come home and check my myspace. Then I changed my status to engaged… I look at Codys page from my myspace…his still says in a relationship. So I then decide to go on his myspace and change his status for him. Obviously I was excited. Then I see… all the effing messages from Lexi. The EX. Great.
Hes all telling her how he wants to talk to her all the time while hes there and call her, and hang out when he gets home. All the while he is calling her cutie, and telling her how good she looks. Not such a big deal right?? Except This past June, we went to hawaii together, and he was texting FIVE other girls and saying all kinds of shit about me and us and whatnot. Saying how his family paid for my ticket, thats the only reason I was there. How we would never get married. And how he didnt wanna be with me. But everything was opposite what he said to me!!!
So ever since then, he promised he would chill with that and not talk to these girls. I mean, he said some MESSED up shit and really broke my trust. When he was telling me how amazing I was and how he loved me sooo much, he was telling Stephanie he wanted to get rid of me because “we fight all the time and he cant stand being around me anymore” nice right? I honestly dont care whos hes friends with, and if theyre ALLLLL female. But dont be talking all kinds of shit about me, deny it to my face, and have me catch you in a LIE!!!
And now hes doing it again!!! And right after telling me how hes so excited and cant wait to come home and start a family with me!!! I mean seriously… I feel so played!!!
Please… someone help me justify myself. Cuz I feel like a crazy girlfriend…
The only good thing he did before he left was give me enough money for all the healthy food Ill need, and got me a gym membership while hes gone. I swear to god. Watch me make my goal weight now. I fucking will! 6 months is plenty of time to do it the healthy way and god dammit… Im not ugly. Im just gonna use all his shit, my membership he got me, the healthy food, and rub it in his face. When he comes home, ill say thanks for the new bod… move back to cali. And start the fuck over.
Ps sorry for the vulgarity. I was upset… still am… But thanks for listening guys and gals. You all help me more than you know =]
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