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Here is the Lemon Chicken Couscous:

http://homecooking.about.com/od/chickenrecipes/r/blchicken31.htm

Its high in protein, low in calories, and suuuuuper delishhh!!!

And this one is the Roasted Veggies:

http://www.recipezaar.com/Oven-Roasted-Vegetables-South-Beach-81585 

Holy crap. If you need a good way to get in more veggies, this is IT! These veggies are friggen AMAZING! I had to make it two nights in a row cuz I just wanted it sooo bad! Lol…

Enjoy!

[ps no pic, just recipes =p]

WELL! Today is starting out to be a horrible day! Last night Cody had an AWFUL night at work. Hes ok though, dont worry. But he ended up being mad at me for no reason. Ugh. So I got pissy. It wasnt good. But I figured since I worked out sooo hard last night, I would wake up to a wonderful weight loss surprise! WRONG!!! I GAINED!!! Point 4 lbs. Im pissed. Ive been eating the right amount of calories, the right foods, not cheating, doing cardio and weights. And it is waaaay too early for me to be having any plateaus or “muscle gain”. Im so frustrated! I think it might have a lot to do with this stress. Ugh. And I told you guys I wouldnt bitch about Codys mom anymore, so just know that ONCE AGAIN[!!!!!!!] she is the cause. That woman! GRRRR!!!

One good thing happened at the gym last night though! I met Alex. =]]]]

Alex is a personal trainer at the gym. I didnt know this when I started talking to her [yup a she, gotcha =p]. She was like, wow, youre really motivated. I knew she worked there when she jumped behind the counter. But it was after desk hours, so I was like, ohh you work here? She said, come jump on some cardio with me. I wanna talk to you. Ok! cool! So… We were cooling down on the treads, and she noted how long I had been there. She was there for almost 3 hours and I was there before her. She said, why are you here so much? Im training for a body building competition, so I need the hours. I told her about my Biggest Loser theory. She basically wants to be my workout buddy! And make this happen for me! I told her 40 lbs would be wonderful. She said in 12 weeks, I could even do 50[!!!!!!] with my motivation! Im so excited! I have a personal training session today and Wednesday so far. And we exchanged phone numbers. She said if Im at the gym, give her a call and she will come too! Ahhh!!! Im SOOO excited for this!!!

Im hoping this little weight gain goes away! The old me would totally be giving up because of this. But I know its nothing. It doesnt matter. The work Im putting in matters. Im trying so hard! And Im certainly not about to give up now!!!

Lastly, as promised, a pic of me! I was about 6 in this pic. Three years before the weight gain. See how small my legs were?! I was sooo tiny when I was younger. Sometimes I get mad at my mom for taking me and my sister out of gymnastics. And Im angry with my dad for letting me eat ice cream! For breakfast! Ughhhhh… But once upon a time, I did have chicken legs. I have fatty thighs now lol… Super thick, and I hate it! I miss you chicken legs. I think about you all the time. And maybe, just maybe, someday, I can see you again!

Hahahaha…

Ok, let me start off first by saying that yesterday was cheat day. I felt so guilty about having to cheat that I ended up having:

-1 Smart Ones Ice Cream Sundae, cookie dough flavored, with 3 grams of protein and 170 cals!!!

And for dinner, of course everything was spaced out so I wasnt pigging out…

-1 Eating Right Cheese Pizza, with 22 grams of protein and 340 cals!!!

All my other meals were healthy and “normal” eating for me. No other “cheating” happened.

So Ive been checking out how to cleanse your body. And I found this: http://ezinearticles.com/?Can-Colon-Cleansing-Really-Help-Me-Lose-Weight?&id=1122423. It tells you exactly how cleansing can make it easier for your body to welcome the nutrients it needs rather than just discarding them due to a dirty colon. Im not even interested in the fact you can lose up to 20lbs, because I know its not fat. Im more concerned with losing the fat on my body and building muscle. But if Im doing all this healthy eating? Buying organic fruits and veggies, eating chicken and fish, not eating processed sugars and nasty junk food, and my body isnt even reaping the full benefits??? WHAT??? So am I wasting my time eating healthy? No, of course not. Its a lifestyle and I need this change. But if my body isnt working the way it should be because of all this unwanted undigested food in my body from previous splurges [roadtrip ring a bell? McD’s, Taco Bell, Dairy Queen???] I need it out!!! It says in that article some people can even have up to 4 or 5 undigested meals in their systems! OMG! GROSS!!!

I feel like Im doing a good job and I am losing the weight. I just wanna flush these toxins out now! But Im scared of the side effects. It says having an uncleansed colon can cause fatigue. Yup, Im there. And the obvious not getting the full benefits of eating right. I want to do it. But Im curious if anyone here has done it? What they think? How did it make you feel? I certainly dont want to waste days at home, nervous to leave, because I fear I will need bathroom trips every 10 seconds like it says too! I just want to be healthy! Anyone with any info, it would be greatly appreciated! =]

Also, I think for myself, Im gonna start posting pix of me from different stages in my life with lower weights and higher weights. For inspiration to myself to keep going, and so everyone can see my crazy journey. Ive been so many different weights in the past few years, I feel like everyone here doesnt even know my weight battle. So heres a pic of me from Winter ‘07. I was about 174lbs here. What I wouldnt give to get back to this NOW! Lol… The next is a pic of me from when I was younger and skinny. I think I was about 3 in this pic… Awww… =p And the last pic is of me when I started putting on the weight. About 4th grade, so 9 years old. Thats when my mom and dad split and I went to grammys to visit EVERY weekend… With all the snackies. Ughh… You can see the beginnings of a double chin! AT NINE!!! =O So happy Im turning my life around!!!

L: Me, Top: Cousin, Jen, R: Cousin, Stef, B: Sister, Amber

xo 

Yay!!! So Sunday is the official weigh in day, but I wanted to blog a little early! I started about a week ago. The top pictures are me at 191 lbs, first day at the gym. The bottom pix are me now!!! I cant see too much of a difference, but I know only time will help, of course along with more exercise.

I put a lot of thought into how much weight I can safely lose in the next 12 weeks! I have EXACTLY 12 weeks left, Im more than half way done waiting for Cody to come home, and sooo much less than half way where I wanna be weight wise =/. If I can lose  4 lbs a week, I can be in the 130’s EASY. Three pounds a week just wont do, but 3 and 1/2 would be ok =]. Im trying so hard! Im working my butt off literally because I want this soooo bad!!! I want to wear that cute little mini skirt, and have legs that make everyone envious. I want to look SEXY! For the first time in my life, I feel like I DESERVE to look SEXY!

I told Cody last night that first and foremost, I AM doing this for ME! I need to be healthy. I need to lose fat. I want to feel better and look better. I told him that he would also benefit from this. So it is for him too. Im so ridiculously uncomfortable in my own body. It needs to change. Im hoping that posting pix of the serious before genre [lol] will only push me harder. Its hard for me to put these up here. Im so critical of myself. I can see all the things I need to change and where is too big and every single little flaw! It drives me nuts!!! But Ive been talking to some ladies on here who are also ashamed of their bodies. We are all here to change right? And how are you supposed to change something you cant accept? So Im accepting that this is my body NOW. And I WILL change it. Im gonna post weekly progress pix [since I finally figured out how to do it lol] so hopefully I can see changes and wanna push for more. And maybe, just maybe, it can help someone else.

I used to be the girl that would give up if I couldnt lose the weight I wanted. Or if I weighed in two days in a row, and it was the same weight. I would be so discouraged and run and grab some cookies or chips! Im not that girl anymore. It wasnt the best week ever, but I know it takes time. I have the will power, now its time to put it to work!

Ive spent the last couple of days doing a MINIMUM of four hours a day at the gym. I feel like ASS!!! Hahaha… But I guess in a good way? My legs hurt from yesterday, and I think I already killed my arms today OUCHHH!!! I feel better though. Im down another 2 lbs =p OH YAH!

I did 2 hours on the elliptical yesterday. I got in an hour of cardio so far today. Ive had to make it 2 hours of gym, break for food at home, then back to the gym again. Im excited to go back though! I go when theres hardly anyone there. I like it like that for now. I texted Meredith a pic of this chick who was on the stairs in front of me. MAN! Did that make me work out harder!!! She was SOOO effing tiny! And she did the stairs for an hour then jumped right onto the elliptical for an hour! Its ok, it just motivated me =p The whole time she was cardio-ing, so was I! So YAY!

Plus I found this SWEET ab thing, well two actually. I could actually feel my abs having to work! That NEVER happens for me. One machine is the infomercial one for the Ab Rocker[??] But you kneel on it and hold your body up with your arms and pull your knees up to your chest! Man that one feels good!!! Then another machine… You lay back on it and reach behind you and grab the handles and pull them overhead to your stomach. OMG! That one BURNEDDD!!! I tried to do as many reps as I could, but I ended up having to take some weight off so I could keep going.

Im just excited to go back. I was color coordinating my closet yesterday [Yup, Im that cool! Hahaha] and I was hanging up all my shirts. I got kind of upset. I noticed how TINY all my shirts seem now. I havent even tried to put any of them on =/ I just wanted to stop hanging up my clothes and go to the gym for 12 days in a row! But I know Ill be in them again soon. So its ok. =] ANNDD… Today my mom asked me if I wanted a Hooters shirt [Shes in Atlantic City, NJ] So I said sure, then I texted her back and said no cuz I remembered how short they were! =[ She said shes gonna get it for me still. Cool =] now I have another goal shirt! Im excited. Cuz I know I can do this. Come on now, 8 lbs… in a week??? Yah. I got this. WOO WOO!!!

I was gonna wait for a whole week to pass to see how many lbs I dropped, but I just couldnt take it!!! So I looked!!! =O

Ready???…

SIX LBS SINCE START DAYYYY!!!

Im so happy!!! I just got back from the gym, and Ive been eating SUPER healthy. I had some Special K Protein Plus cereal for breakfast, a protein shake at the gym, Butternut Squash Ravioli and some chicken I made for lunch. Im so excited! I cant wait for the next healthy, delcious meal… Mmm… Haha…

My gym has a FREE rock climbing wall! We were supposed to do a rock wall in Project Adventure in 11th grade. Eff that! Haha… I didnt do the wall in junior year cuz I thought I was too big and couldnt get up… I was 225 then… So as soon as I hit about 170, Im gonna do it!!! I think of it as a small, personal goal.

I remember in junior year there was another girl who was about the same size as me. I watched her try to do the wall. She could barely get on the first piece of it. I applaud her for her bravery. I stood back and watched her try. And the whole time as I was waiting for my turn to look like an idiot on that thing, I could hear all the “popular” kids talking sooo much shit about that girl. And I felt bad… But all I could think about was “Wow… Thats gonna be me in about 5 minutes…” So I opted not to do it. I knew I was a girly girl and I already had the mind set that I couldnt do it, so why try and get laughed at? So I failed the class, never did anything in that class, and it was ALLLLL physical stuff. Oh well I know now that I am no longer that 225 pound high school girl who lets people get to her. Im gonna do what I wanna do, when I wanna do it!!! I know I could probably do the wall now… But… I just wanna be more comfortable in my own skin. Im doing this for me. And I swear to god… Once I hit 170? That wall… IS MINE!!!

I feel really good today. Lots of stress has been taken care of. I was pretty upset the last couple days. But Im good to go now. I made some brownies… And DIDNT EAT THEM!!! Haha… I was just sooooo upset! And I USED to eat my feelings. I took one look at those brownies and just couldnt do it! I was amazed. I think Im really changing.

This blog is alllll over the place haha, I guess I just cant figure out how to say everything Im feeling. So basically, Im happy now. And Im back on track. FINALLY =]

Thanks to all of you for all your support!

Im sooooo excited for today!!!

I already had some awesome, super amped with protein, breakfast!!! I need to go have some healthy lunch now, then make my protein shake and off to the gym ; ]

I dont even think anyone quite understands my motivation right now. I wanna wear a little ripped jean skirt where the pockets show, cuz its soooo short [think Britney lol], from Abercrombie. A really cute tank or tee from A&F too, and some flip flops, cute sunglasses, and accessories. Im getting my hair SUPER blonde, Im tanning soon, ANNND getting the nails, eyebrows, makeup, etc done for when Cody comes home. And I dont think even CODY HIMSELF knows how bad I want this. Im sooo friggen determined.

And you know what Ive been thinking about? Tara, Helen and Mike lost on average about 140lbs each right? And they did the most of that in the 17 weeks on the ranch right? Well I have about 1/4 to 1/3 of what they lost to lose myself, and 13 weeks to do it!!! I have four less weeks, to lose waaay less weight!!! I KNOW I can do this. I love that I have nothing to do with my time hahaha. Im so happy Cody is so selfish =p He wants me to stay home to talk to him? Well fine haha, that means I dont have time for a job. But I doooo have plenty of time for gymmmm =]]]]] Cuz now I can go when I want, when I need, when Codys busy at work, or just plain ole whenever I feel like going to get my workout on ; ]

Im so excited and so ready for this =]]] I think Im gonna go shopping for my goal outfit for the day he comes home… Goal size? Mmmm… 4 or 6 in Abercrombieeee<333

I got this. Aint nobodyyy gon hold me down! WooWoo! Gym time!

xo

Hey everyone! Me and CoCap decided Thursday will be best. So everyone tell me the best time for them, well pick the time that the most people can get online, and add me to your msn! Angelbebe636@hotmail.com !!!!!

ps- I just got back from walmart. I spent $100.48 on some seriously healthy food!!! Lots of fruits and veggies. I got the huge $13 pack of chicken. Brown rice, brown bread, and milk. No juice, no sweets, and noooo junk =p YAY! Sooooo hope youre all excited! Im stoked for Thursday!!!

another ps- Welcome Jose to the team!!! Our first male member!!! Im so excited for everyone to meet and start working on our goals.

Top 10 Reasons for Hating the Roadtrip from Mass to Cheyenne…

1. Its LONNNNG drive! All there is to look at is the wide open boring meadows and… of course,

2. The roadkill. Seriously EWWW. I think we saw about 14/15 deer, over 30 raccoons, couple squirrels, couple possums, etc EWWW

3. The super crazy, hard to drive in wind. The wind is so super strong that it makes it sooo hard to do anything in and cause…

4. Birds not to be able to fly good so they FLY INTO YOUR WINDSHIELD AT 85 MPH!!! Yah… Amber screamed, I jumped. And then felt horrible. That birdie had no chance. =[

5. And more on those fun strong winds… They lead to HIGHWAY CLOSINGS… omg… I got off and slept for about 20 mins and we got… DQ. =[ It was 93 degrees where we stopped. It felt like death. But at least the winds calmed down when we started back up.

6a. DQ. For 2 reasons… One, there is noooo healthy food on 90 and 80, so youre stuck eating shit and feeling like shit. Blah.

6b. DQ. For me being so tired and ordering a McFrosty [combo of McD’s annnd Wendys?! AT DQ??!!] Hahaha I was so tired…

7. Literally hundreds and hundreds of dead bug debree allllll over my windshield. Amber washed the windshield for me, 10 miles later, back to bug city =/ Annnnd bees??? Stuck on my grill. Wow… Wowwww…

8. I found out onnnn the roadtrip my cd plyer plays mp3 cds. Did I bring any of those? No. Because I didnt know it played them! [What happened was I accidently made an mp3 cd and thought it was a regular one. I stuck it in the player, and it pops up MP3 DISC. UGHH] I had about 7 cds we listened to OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER. So note to self, next time, you need 37924073290758023 cds OR 1 really awesome mp3 cd. Haha… love it.

9. You absoletely cannot sleep in a car with your sister, dog, and newly aquired cat comfortably… and if you try, you end up drowning yourself in your own drool… YUMM! And it wasnt just me who did, you can ask Amber. She did too! =p

10. IT TAKES FOREVERRR! It feels like it will never end haha… Theres seriously nothing to look at unless you wanna see road guts. EW. No where to sleep, crazy dog and crazy cat fights, repetitive music, bad food, etc…

So that about sums up the road trip! And a HUGEEE ps- Team meeting miiiight have to be Thursday. I slept a total of about an hour the whole 32 hours of roadtrip. And Im still paying for it. So Im thinking Thursday. Let me know if that works and/or is ok with everyone!!!

 Missed ya’ll =]]]

Leaving for home NOW!!!!!!

 A late start, but no worries.

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Ill miss youuuu for a few days =p